Cute guy and I are meeting tomorrow after school… Let’s hope everything goes well!!

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I wonder what people will say when they find out who I really am…

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I just realized that though I’m looking forward to going to uni and moving out, I’m also quite scared.

It will be so different. Suddenly I’ll be on my own! No mum to wake me up if I’m running late, no stepdad to help with classes, no dad to laugh with when I’m stressed out, no brother to hang out with when I’m bored.

When I move out, both my mum and dad will move as well. My mum and stepdad will go to Antwerp, my dad and his girlfriend to Hasselt. So there won’t be a safe place to return to in case I get homesick. I’ll be missing 2 houses that aren’t my homes any more. It scares me because there will be no turning back. It’s definite whether I want this or not.

There’s one advantage though… I won’t have to pack and unpack my suitcases every week because I’m switching houses. All my stuff will be in just 1 place. Let’s hope everything will work out. My family might move to different places but they’ll always stay my family. There will always be 2 places I can call home and where I’ll have my own room to crash in.

I’m just really really tired of everything, both mentally and physically. And I’ve still got to study a lot for physics. Great, just great.

I can’t seem to forget about everything that’s happened, and it still hurts. Not that anyone knows what I’m talking about anyway. Lol. Why do I still try. This sucks.

so I’ve got 2 days left before school starts again and I haven’t finished even half of my work I had to do. I’m so fucked.

braces were taken off today, going to Spain tomorrow… HELL YEAH

For 3 whole fucking weeks. Life’s good. I love karma.

so it’s almost 5am and haven’t slept yet. Is there anyone else out there??

I will be attending an advanced dance workshop this sunday with famous choreographers, a showcase and an afterparty… I can’t wait!!

I really need some distraction right now… would anyone consider talking to me?

it’s okay, just ignore me… I’m cool…